2011

Happy New Year..!!!!!

lols.. I haven't got the chance to watch firework during the new year eve. I wish, someone will bring me someday. What a comic-heart-warming-wish is that?
haha~
well.. i have wrote my resolution for this new year and will try my best to accomplish it.
Some of the resolution will remains secret. I feel it's unnecessary to write everything here. first and foremost, I want to produce a super excellent assignment that can impress the marker n thus gain excellent grade for it.
I wanted to erase the word "sound promising" from my life.
Academically, i want to be better students in term of class attendance, assignment, exam N VOLUNTEERING WORK..!!
i should have started to plan my volunteering work this year and at least get the Certificate granted by the Mayor.
Next, I need to start my pilates lesson on my own as soon as possible. I have a bad feeling that my tummy is becoming a bit obvious especially after i eat.
This winter break have given me a long hibernation time which building up fat in my entire body part. i become self concious about my appearance recently.
I don't know if it's sound good or bad. When i feel happy or sad, i tent to eat a lot and sleep.
It can't be help since i don't practice any other exercises.

Personally, i think i don't have to change my attitude. But maybe, some people are not happy with quiet attitude of mine. keeping all in my heart wouldn't help much. So i guess i have to me more expressive about my feeling. and importantly share everything with the person i love so much. I wish he could be there for me whenever i need. You are all i ever need. Give me some strength, some hope, some attention and i feel being loved.
Thank you for everything you have did for me since we met. I'm in love with you so much~
hmmm...
My life was pretty dull back then. Now, i have something to look forward to. My life is changing a little bit more than previous year. I don't give high expectation that my life will suddenly reach the top, but i want to treasure every moment of this life with my love one..
I believe, not knowing the future allow me to give hope on this life.
I FEEL HAPPY... WITH YOUR LOVE...!!
I wish it will last longer, this feeling i feel deep inside my heart..

2010

My year of 2010 was ended with sweet and bitter memories. Lots of things had happen in my life and turned myself to be more mature person. I think every lesson I've learn in life sort of meaningful and unforgettable experiences.
No way i can be so selfish and ignoring how people felt especially whom i love so much. I know what i wanted in this life and hoping one day, i will successfully achieve it. Life isn't a dream, it's a reality. I remembered vividly what i've gone through to achieve this. I felt down for silly things because i think myself couldn't be able to face days alone. But, i forget one things. People who love me always on my side. We're far apart and couldn't share our feeling, sadness, happiness, the joy i gain here, the excitement over something and many more.. Somehow, It gave me a lot of time to think about how to show my gratitude for them.
and to think about my own self. I realize that i should stop comparing my life with other people.
I should feel grateful for what i have. Loving parents and husband-to-be.. I wish for their happiness all the time. It means a lot to me when they smile, laugh and telling me they all fine.
I feel great to end the year 2010. No regrets and always looking forward to facing becoming days when i woke up every morning.
Life is wonderful, full of colours..
After all.. it all depend on me how i fill in the colour into my own life.

Boxing Day sale in Canterbury

I spend only £45 today for 2 pairs of shoes, 2 dress from Topshop, a cardigan from Zara, a blouse and a pair of trousers.
Worth it and i save more than 100 Pound..!

Review from me

Recently, i just watched a video from youtube called "teacher shieda". Most Malaysian probably already knew about the existence of her video, but for those who doesn't know. Lets me tell you know.

This owner of the Youtube is known as Cik Sheida or Teacher Sheida. She works as a English teacher in Malaysia. Her entries on Youtube mainly about her Miming activity of diffrent songs.
N she her ideas were shown in various way. Starting from acting like a guy, and wearing sort of funny costume n then silly make up. lols

I'm writing this entry to give my personal view about her Youtube. I'm not purposely to condemn her action. Rather to voice out my thinking. It's really interesting at first to watch all her videos, but when reading some of the comment on the video. I was quite surprise. I personally think that different people has different ways of expressing themselves. Perhaps, Teacher sheida just do the same as what normal people would do. People always look at others weaknesses and blame to that person for acting silly. But i Think she has her own personal reasons. It's quite harsh to ask her stop dong things she like. Imagine yourself are asked to quit from things you really like from a stranger. We have the right to view her videos, but maybe we have to think twice before posting something offended on her Youtube. After all, she's not the only one who did the song miming.I bet any other people also did or ever try it in thier life. At the very least, anonymous outside there should give her some respect. there's no way to make people respect of yourself if you don't learn to respect other people first.

Secondly, I also think we are not suppose to be extremely judgemental about her. There's no way that she bother about your life. and for me. It would be rude to relate her normal n teacher life. She's a normal human being who has interest in this stuff. Being a teacher doesn't mean she deserve to be critised. She is doing a nobel work in her life. Teaching our children to be well being person. Showing the kids that there's nothing wrong to do what you like as long as it doesn't give bad effect to other people. I feel we should give some tribute to her for encouraging our kids to be themselves. It's just a part of teacher's role to be a good role model to students. And she's doing nothing wrong here. If her song miming activity is opposed by Malaysian Education system, Obviously all her videos would be marked as 'inappropriate'. and maybe she'll be fired straight away by doing this. I do feel that as a teacher we should encourage our students to be brave to express their ideas. In this case, recording a video n post to youtube can be a good example of self learning. Kids are not strictly asked to record merely a miming video. It could be about their experiences during study trip. a video about their family, mommy daddy brothers and sister.. n could be a feedback about what they learn in school. It sounds great, isn't it? The kids not only motivating to independently learning and develop their learning skills especially speaking. But also become more creative and thinking about their own learning. It's important to look at something in a different angle. We should not blame her for what she did.

I got many thing to write here. But i think this would be enough for now. Hopefully, she won't feel offended by those comment n continue her passion. I do respect her not only as a teacher-to-be but importantly as a normal human beings.

Snowing (snow + storming)

Interesting picture..accidentally captured..

hahah.. it was so much fun last 3 weeks, it was snowing heavily and the campus was closed due to the bad weather.
i was suppose to submit assignment on that day, but my lecturer kindly extend due date. hohoho
thanx to bad weather...
My housemate and i end up playing snow outside...

There is a main road at the background. make dunnoe n took picture

There are hundreds of photo.. randomly pick one n post here..
lol..

Early preparation

It's totally not like last year.

Obviously, munchkin is not here for the Christmas, mean no food, no new dress, no Christmas pudding, no Ben&Jerry ice-cream,. and
apparently, no Munchkin..
huk huk huk..
so sad..
but i did buy some ornament, last year 1 i gave to munchkin. I hope he'll remember me during this time..
I miss him so much.. My heart telling me it's ok to spend this Christmas alone.
I keep busy doing something to occupy my free time. It's a month holiday, n i'm not planning to go somewhere.
I just wish to come back n meet my only love one, munchkin.
I went to college n submit my assignment, i feel relief knowing now i can have my own time. without thinking of the task. it's over.
I bought some new ornament, chocolate n few novel.. ornament for Christmas tree munchkin bought last year, Ferrero Rocher to treat my self n novel to read.. I guess my life not perfect here. But, i feel a bit happy knowing munchkin love me.. i feel happy to be with him.
Dear santa, i want to be happily ever after with munchkin n wishing our love will not fade away.
munchkin.. I love you..

early preparation for Christmas.. My little christmas tree in my own room~

Winter story

Once upon a time...
There's a little girl name Shasha.
She loves snow and everything that's white.
I met her just now and she said wanna tell me something. But i don't expect too much from her because i know she's quite childish.

"I have something in my mind' she said.

I tell her to tell me what's on her mind but she cannot tell me now.
Ok then, i replied. I guess it must be something surprise.
Then , she said will tell me only if i could promise her one thing.
Please don't tell my munchkin what i did at the backyard~
could you keep this as a secret?

i simply said YES...!!!

Then she went to the backyard, look around to check whether anyone is around.

OMG...!!!
what the hell is she doing there?
Is this what she mean by a secret?
She's doing IT there without realizing i'm following her..

Actually, She's not doing things-that-you- know-what.
She ask me to help her build snowman..
Its just a misunderstanding..

My snowman called JiggleBELL