When the Words Speak

OH mY GOd..!!
The Fucking real bitch has shown their Nasty Evil Slut Form.
What am i talking about? Nah. Its nothing~ I just playing with words. It's so much FUN.!
No one will ask you to stop, No one will tell you what is right and what is wrong.
It is just Words..
But be careful, Watch out everyone..!!!
There are BADDDDDDD Words..
couples, Hundreds and probably Millions of them out there.
NO matter What language it be, they are still the same BAd words that people use.

What come into our mind when we think about Words?

Words are gossip

Words are weapons

Words are joy and Fun

but Words also show your stupidity and low morality.
DON'T THEY..??

Why on earth Words always talking about people life?
About dissatisfaction?
About status symbol?
About Making fun of people weaknesses?
About offensive matter?
Haven't Those words realise how suck the people are when the people using them to talk about all this shit?
Why words never tired of ruining and interfering other people business?
It' so pathetic.
Why are these people using such words?
Perhaps, for power?
To influence other people so they can gain trust and make friends.
For attention?
To SHOW OFF what they have achieved.
All these are bullshit.. Really..
Only People who have chronic jealousy, arrogant will do..
Ironically, people will look down on you. The idea that you are a totally complete LOSER..

BAD words will forever be a BAD words no matter how people do to change its outer appearance.
Lemme give an example,.
Think of the word 'B.I.T.C.H"
well-written
well-spelled
well-pronounced (i HOpe i doesn't sound BIActh)
colourful
AT the end, Bitch remains the same.
It's used to make critical remark about someone,
for example: SHe can be a real BITCH..
oh....It sounds like I'm giving a language lesson.
whatever you think..
Hope this will not be read by under aged children.

Sunday Tale

There is a girl name Wilslovey. She woke up early in the morning to watch her favourite japanese anime which is Mitsudomoe~
Currently, her Internet connection at home very extremely SUCK..!!!
She's so frustrated with her landlord management. This should NOT be happened.! She paid 320 British Pound just to pay the rent which including internet service And THIS IS what they call good service. Beside having to pay the utilities bills by herself, she's so unfortunate to have a small room without a mirror for herself. Perhaps you might nOT know that it is necessary for a girl to have a mirror. Even a small one should be okay For her.
OMG..
This is more worst than she expected. Without internet, her life is doomed.!! She's paralysed in her own world. She's stuck without nothing to do during the weekend.
She needs HERO.. Who will save her?
Even her Romeo is gone for fishing.. What a pity girl. I wish I could say this.."Wake Up, Go Out and count the Grass in front of your house"
However, i know this wont work for her. Nevermind, I know she'll be happy when her romeo come back from fishing. They can talk until the sun rise, if it's a night time..LOLs..

Hurt Being Apart

Reminder: There are probably some spelling error. You may not want to finish reading this.

Everyday on May 2009, i used to online for my becoming exam. Although sometimes the internet connection was suck, i was glad one day, in Facebook, I met Wilson. The guy i now love. It was definitely a coincidence that he lived nearby from my college. I woke up early every morning since the day i had talked with him. He's so warm and suddenly i forgot about doing my revision for exam.I just couldn't get him out of my mind. One day, the foolish side of myself telling that i should stop emailing and sms him. It turned out he thought i was avoiding him which actually not true. i was tried to pay attention on my exam. I liked him more than just chatting friend and i know he liked me too.But i guess, it didn't come across his mind that i start liking him from the day we chat.I wished to give him the hint but i don't know how.

On May 18, after few days of chatting, emails, sms and a few phone calls from him, I decided to meet him. I couldn't wait any longer or wait until my exam finish. Its just that the more i think about him the more i lose focus. I was overwhelmed with excitement and looking forward to meet him that evening.
At first, we both speechless. I just wanna tell him i felt happy to meet him, but i the word just stuck in my throat. I want to tell him how beautiful his eyes are. I want to tell him I LIKE YOU but obviously, i just talking to myself.

But, i had to tell him. It all i could think about.

Without hesitation, I then told him.

Turns out he felt the same way I did.

After the exam over, I told him i Love him. He's more than just a friend for me. I'm not a person to tell someone I love them unless I'm absolutely sure about it, and I was. He said he loved me too.

I wanted to get together everyday, but it didn't work out. It was really devastated knowing that i am gonna further my studies overseas soon. And my time to be at the college was over. Soon, i need to go back to my hometown and leave him there alone. As if we never met. I could not think of others than him. I wish i have met him earlier. It seemed like the times was moving so fast, i just met him and the next thing i realized, we soon going to be apart.

Knowing that only 3 month left before off to UK, we both grab every opportunities to be together.

The distance didn't stop either me or him to look for each other. We were able to meet face-to face at least once a month. Time is too short. One day seemed to be just a second when we were together. An the ending definitely torture us. The tears kept running down my cheek every time i waving to him from the bus. The separation was worst. I felt so vulnerable. Even though he tried to act tough, i can see him crying though his red eyes. He can't hide anything.
5 hours journey, I felt nothing. My vision blur, my heart sank.

We were so hopeless, Why can't we be like other couple who live together happily?

Why we have to be apart?

The reality was hurt. I didn't want to leave him when he need me the most. And i didn't want him to leave me either~

Finally, the day that i wasn't waiting for has came. September 13, I was off to UK. leaving all my precious thing behind.
I've turned into heartless machine.Just looking at him waving me goodbye at the airport. I wanted to turn back and hug him. I wanted to bring him along, I wanted to be with him. They were just wishes. Nothing will change them unless there was a miracle.
i failed miserably.
All i ever wanted just to be with the one i love now and forever. That's him, Wilson.

The becoming days that I've gone through really hard and suffering without him besides me.

Little by little, the separation made me gone crazy. Sometimes i felt happy whenever looking at our picture.

Sometimes, i felt depressed.

More worst, i could not live a normal day like before. All this while, i used to be with him.. He used to looked after me. He used to take care every thing. My lunch, dinner and even to comb my hair. Now, every things is gone. I am all alone with a piece of love.

As time went by, I became weak and more fragile. I just wish to reunite with him again. To love and to be loved again. To live a normal days again. To laugh and smile again. To proudly whisper I LOVE YOU to him again.~

I was worried. I was scared. Nothing is worst for me than waking up every morning knowing that there's no one beside me. There's no one to give me tender touch and warm hug~

Every nights was a nightmare. Never switch off the light because i was scared alone in the dark. Not like before when i was with him. Whenever i dream of him, i couldn't stop crying until morning. Like a baby wants her mummy.

I envy those couple who live together. When they have the chance to be together, they should appreciate it. Not until they lose either one.


For me, I never wish for this separation. No matter how hard to go through the day, i will never give up.
Because i have promise him one thing..
I WILL COME BACK..~

My English suck

Woke up in the morning, someone telling me 'ENglish Aper"..

haih~ really demotivating. I thought could improve my English, turn out it always the same~

suck..!!

Saturday...

I hate saturday.. while everyone waiting for weekend, but i hate when the day comes..
It reminds me how i used to be with my parents,. family gathering with lots of laugh, played with nephews.. helped my mom cook,..

and it reminds me of him as well, how we spend the days.. sometimes woke up late, had lunch n dinner together, watched movies.. but now. everything gone already.. i am just a lonely girl, waiting for dreams come true...
spending time alone since the early morning, hoping to chat like usual.. but end up, online again n doing nothing.. feel being ignored..
no matter how interesting Fb, it still seems like a blank page.. worst, making me crying whenever i viewed the picture and album of me, and him...
its not his fault bcoz quite busy recently, but me myself.. maybe coz need him so much.. n obviously, feel totally different without him.. it's just awhile.. no need to cry.. he will come back..
an hour feels like 10hours, imagine if 2 hours or more..
huhuks.. stupid.. hua.. why left me alone here~ huuuuuu~

Friday Morning...

hmm.. nothing to do... finish assignment last week, just enjoy the day online and watching anime.. glad to have good mark for currently received paper...
horrayyy....
counting days to sit for exam and summer holiday..!!

Just a simple thing

hm.. interesting when someone criticized other ppl but she/he seemed didn't think about it beforehand, what a shame....
to those person.. just mind your own business, its not your life after all.. do you think you really have the right to critic on others? its not just their business, but talking about other just make yourself look pathetic and worst? why so jealous, is it?
haih~
stop doing it coz ppl might hate you becoz of the attitude. do you know how many people have been humiliated? hurt? because of your comment? worst, it is not just that, their entire life might be ruined becoz of the things u have said, and wrote... becoz of the rumors, other start to think bad about the people you condemn. Imagine if this happen to you one day.. coz what goes around, comes around.. enough with the public gossiping about other people life. what matter is, it is you.. so hard to let others live peacefully... there's no other thing to talk? so happy when make up stories and spread it? exaggerate things huh? you treat that person this way, somehow.. u get it back.. look surrounding.. you r so happy with your life,? with your friends? everything goes like you wanted it to be? you get good grades for your study? you never be satisfied right? never feel guilty when u talked bad thing about someone? do you know your best friend also talked bad things behind you. u never realise right, bcoz u don't know.. trust them as if they can be trusted.. so pity..
obviously, they are very good actor in front of you.. congrates to them and so sorry to you.. although, i knew lots of thing.. but i keep it n not to tell you coz if i tell, it might end up u lose precious friend who u depend on too much,.. extremely pity to poor ppl who losing her trusted friend. By now, u should realise why bother about other people life is a problem?

why don't you let them go live peacefully and do things what they want. they are not burdening you, not bothering your life... so... what else.. let them live their own life.. simple is it??