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Everyday on May 2009, i used to online for my becoming exam. Although sometimes the internet connection was suck, i was glad one day, in Facebook, I met Wilson. The guy i now love. It was definitely a coincidence that he lived nearby from my college. I woke up early every morning since the day i had talked with him. He's so warm and suddenly i forgot about doing my revision for exam.I just couldn't get him out of my mind. One day, the foolish side of myself telling that i should stop emailing and sms him. It turned out he thought i was avoiding him which actually not true. i was tried to pay attention on my exam. I liked him more than just chatting friend and i know he liked me too.But i guess, it didn't come across his mind that i start liking him from the day we chat.I wished to give him the hint but i don't know how.
On May 18, after few days of chatting, emails, sms and a few phone calls from him, I decided to meet him. I couldn't wait any longer or wait until my exam finish. Its just that the more i think about him the more i lose focus. I was overwhelmed with excitement and looking forward to meet him that evening.
At first, we both speechless. I just wanna tell him i felt happy to meet him, but i the word just stuck in my throat. I want to tell him how beautiful his eyes are. I want to tell him I LIKE YOU but obviously, i just talking to myself.
But, i had to tell him. It all i could think about.
Without hesitation, I then told him.
Turns out he felt the same way I did.
After the exam over, I told him i Love him. He's more than just a friend for me. I'm not a person to tell someone I love them unless I'm absolutely sure about it, and I was. He said he loved me too.
I wanted to get together everyday, but it didn't work out. It was really devastated knowing that i am gonna further my studies overseas soon. And my time to be at the college was over. Soon, i need to go back to my hometown and leave him there alone. As if we never met. I could not think of others than him. I wish i have met him earlier. It seemed like the times was moving so fast, i just met him and the next thing i realized, we soon going to be apart.
Knowing that only 3 month left before off to UK, we both grab every opportunities to be together.
The distance didn't stop either me or him to look for each other. We were able to meet face-to face at least once a month. Time is too short. One day seemed to be just a second when we were together. An the ending definitely torture us. The tears kept running down my cheek every time i waving to him from the bus. The separation was worst. I felt so vulnerable. Even though he tried to act tough, i can see him crying though his red eyes. He can't hide anything.
5 hours journey, I felt nothing. My vision blur, my heart sank.
We were so hopeless, Why can't we be like other couple who live together happily?
Why we have to be apart?
The reality was hurt. I didn't want to leave him when he need me the most. And i didn't want him to leave me either~
Finally, the day that i wasn't waiting for has came. September 13, I was off to UK. leaving all my precious thing behind.
I've turned into heartless machine.Just looking at him waving me goodbye at the airport. I wanted to turn back and hug him. I wanted to bring him along, I wanted to be with him. They were just wishes. Nothing will change them unless there was a miracle.
i failed miserably.
All i ever wanted just to be with the one i love now and forever. That's him, Wilson.
The becoming days that I've gone through really hard and suffering without him besides me.
Little by little, the separation made me gone crazy. Sometimes i felt happy whenever looking at our picture.
Sometimes, i felt depressed.
More worst, i could not live a normal day like before. All this while, i used to be with him.. He used to looked after me. He used to take care every thing. My lunch, dinner and even to comb my hair. Now, every things is gone. I am all alone with a piece of love.
As time went by, I became weak and more fragile. I just wish to reunite with him again. To love and to be loved again. To live a normal days again. To laugh and smile again. To proudly whisper I LOVE YOU to him again.~
I was worried. I was scared. Nothing is worst for me than waking up every morning knowing that there's no one beside me. There's no one to give me tender touch and warm hug~
Every nights was a nightmare. Never switch off the light because i was scared alone in the dark. Not like before when i was with him. Whenever i dream of him, i couldn't stop crying until morning. Like a baby wants her mummy.
I envy those couple who live together. When they have the chance to be together, they should appreciate it. Not until they lose either one.
For me, I never wish for this separation. No matter how hard to go through the day, i will never give up.
Because i have promise him one thing..
I WILL COME BACK..~
Everyday on May 2009, i used to online for my becoming exam. Although sometimes the internet connection was suck, i was glad one day, in Facebook, I met Wilson. The guy i now love. It was definitely a coincidence that he lived nearby from my college. I woke up early every morning since the day i had talked with him. He's so warm and suddenly i forgot about doing my revision for exam.I just couldn't get him out of my mind. One day, the foolish side of myself telling that i should stop emailing and sms him. It turned out he thought i was avoiding him which actually not true. i was tried to pay attention on my exam. I liked him more than just chatting friend and i know he liked me too.But i guess, it didn't come across his mind that i start liking him from the day we chat.I wished to give him the hint but i don't know how.
On May 18, after few days of chatting, emails, sms and a few phone calls from him, I decided to meet him. I couldn't wait any longer or wait until my exam finish. Its just that the more i think about him the more i lose focus. I was overwhelmed with excitement and looking forward to meet him that evening.
At first, we both speechless. I just wanna tell him i felt happy to meet him, but i the word just stuck in my throat. I want to tell him how beautiful his eyes are. I want to tell him I LIKE YOU but obviously, i just talking to myself.
But, i had to tell him. It all i could think about.
Without hesitation, I then told him.
Turns out he felt the same way I did.
After the exam over, I told him i Love him. He's more than just a friend for me. I'm not a person to tell someone I love them unless I'm absolutely sure about it, and I was. He said he loved me too.
I wanted to get together everyday, but it didn't work out. It was really devastated knowing that i am gonna further my studies overseas soon. And my time to be at the college was over. Soon, i need to go back to my hometown and leave him there alone. As if we never met. I could not think of others than him. I wish i have met him earlier. It seemed like the times was moving so fast, i just met him and the next thing i realized, we soon going to be apart.
Knowing that only 3 month left before off to UK, we both grab every opportunities to be together.
The distance didn't stop either me or him to look for each other. We were able to meet face-to face at least once a month. Time is too short. One day seemed to be just a second when we were together. An the ending definitely torture us. The tears kept running down my cheek every time i waving to him from the bus. The separation was worst. I felt so vulnerable. Even though he tried to act tough, i can see him crying though his red eyes. He can't hide anything.
5 hours journey, I felt nothing. My vision blur, my heart sank.
We were so hopeless, Why can't we be like other couple who live together happily?
Why we have to be apart?
The reality was hurt. I didn't want to leave him when he need me the most. And i didn't want him to leave me either~
Finally, the day that i wasn't waiting for has came. September 13, I was off to UK. leaving all my precious thing behind.
I've turned into heartless machine.Just looking at him waving me goodbye at the airport. I wanted to turn back and hug him. I wanted to bring him along, I wanted to be with him. They were just wishes. Nothing will change them unless there was a miracle.
i failed miserably.
All i ever wanted just to be with the one i love now and forever. That's him, Wilson.
The becoming days that I've gone through really hard and suffering without him besides me.
Little by little, the separation made me gone crazy. Sometimes i felt happy whenever looking at our picture.
Sometimes, i felt depressed.
More worst, i could not live a normal day like before. All this while, i used to be with him.. He used to looked after me. He used to take care every thing. My lunch, dinner and even to comb my hair. Now, every things is gone. I am all alone with a piece of love.
As time went by, I became weak and more fragile. I just wish to reunite with him again. To love and to be loved again. To live a normal days again. To laugh and smile again. To proudly whisper I LOVE YOU to him again.~
I was worried. I was scared. Nothing is worst for me than waking up every morning knowing that there's no one beside me. There's no one to give me tender touch and warm hug~
Every nights was a nightmare. Never switch off the light because i was scared alone in the dark. Not like before when i was with him. Whenever i dream of him, i couldn't stop crying until morning. Like a baby wants her mummy.
I envy those couple who live together. When they have the chance to be together, they should appreciate it. Not until they lose either one.
For me, I never wish for this separation. No matter how hard to go through the day, i will never give up.
Because i have promise him one thing..
I WILL COME BACK..~
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