Akid, Afiq & baby Faiha

Baby Annisa Faiha..

Akid my fav

Afiq my little rascal

Reach Home

As been planned months earlier, i wanted to spent some time with my Munchkin before he went to Miami, Florida last June. I Finally reach KLIA to sent him off. I'm miserably sad with the separation but nothing could turn back time and change things that happen. Now, pretty much i'm quite happy being with my mom, sisters and nephews. The greatest present i've got this time is a cute lil niece who as born on the first Eid. such a wonderful feeling to smell a newborn baby. XD

Lots of things had happened before i reach home, and i could only think to give my mom a big warm hug when i meet her that day. She looks older than her real age, my mom, she's the greatest Mom in the world. i always craving for the home cooked lunch n dinner while i was in the Uk. Staying alone there teach me many things, from the basic house skills like doing chores and cooking until the important self-responsibility, as a student n daughter who lives thousand miles apart. I realised when i reach here that i've become more grown up and everyone treating me as a 'grown-up'. Although sometimes i still asking this and that like a 10 years old kid. I feel it is compulsory for everyone not to bully anyone in the family, even in-laws cannot say something bad about my family to others. or asking for money and purposely forgot to return it back. I dont expect them to do stupid things after we treat them with kindness, love n respect too. why couldn't them think we are a family?

This holiday, i spent most of my time being at home. Giggling, cuddling, joking n laughing with my sister and nephews. I can count how many times i went out with them. Amazingly, i have never went out alone, even with my bestfriend. She's married and i understand well that we couldn't possibly have our own sweet time like 2 or 3 years ago. Many of them have commitment with work and for sure i cannot be selfish.

In nearly 2 weeks, my long 3 months summer holiday will end,. I did what i want here, i have done what i'm suppose to do. and now it's the time to focus back on my dissertation and study.

XD..

What we called a Boyfriend..

B oring
O ddball
Y ucky
F un-loving
R ogue
I nsecure
E ndangered
N eurotic
D umbass....

The definition which REFERS to him..!! huh~
really pissed me off just now..!!!

It's not that I don't love him, but he really irritates me..

Dating without self respect.

How come one can dating without self respect?

1st- You're the one call first and the partner hung up first.
2nd- When you got together, you'd always run to him.
3rd- You the only one always give gift to your partner on anniversaries
So, the consequence of dating without self-respect is being dumped.
and Plus if you continue acting like this, being so pathetic..!!
You will always be treated like trash by men.
And you'll grow old.. All by yourself~

hoho.. check this out for more details!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gXdiKG2Pa38&NR=1

23th birthday..

It doesn't matter whether I'm in the UK or another part of the world.. I'm still myself.
30 January 2011
I was born 23 years ago.
1st birthday- babbling and trying to sing birthday song..lol..
2nd birthday- crying a lot to get attention
3rd birthday- copying what sibling speak to me
4th birthday- Mom gave me a little sister
5th birthday- Having a doll and talking alone with her
6th birthday- Drawing on house wall.. having me own art gallery..lol
7th birthday- went to Primary school
8th birthday- Got 1st place for internal exam
9th birthday- Dad bought me a red bicycle
10th- Had 1st fight with a boy, i WON..!!
11th birthday- Angah (big brother) gave me turquoise dress
12th birthday- One step closer to a teenage life- Puberty and get 5A for UPSR
13th birthday- Went to secondary school- Chubby old times..lol.. & Mom bought me Computer..
14th birthday- Met wonderful people- Pitol, Azie, Ilot, Zaza, Nana, Alim, Mizi, Ira, Ogie, Abg and Fadil~ (BFF)
15th birthday- Got 8A's for PMR and had campfire farewell party with BFF
16th birthday- Went to boarding school, Performing Zapin (traditional Dance) during school events
17th birthday- Dad bought me HP (Sony Ericson Butterfly) & Dorm mates did a surprise party for me~
18th birthday- Sister gave me laptop when i entered Johor Matriculation College & got the greatest roomates (susu, dedey, and lai pui man)
19th Birthday- Mom and Dad sent me to college in KL
20th birthday- Mom gave me gold necklace
21st birthday- Went to UK & met future husband..lol, Went Genting with Him
22nd birthday- Went to Chill, Got Prezzies- Teddy bear..lol
23rd birthday- Wonderful self-baking cake from my housemate, Ilatito Grimaldi~ gorgeous necklace.. !!!

p/s: Million Billion Trillion thanx for making my special day so special..!!! hug & kisses for Ilatito Grimaldi for baking a tiramisu cake for me..!!!
i really really really really appreciated that gal..lol
:) SO happy..!!!!

My Cow..

I have a pet.. called him COW coz he look like a cow..
A male Bunny...
So adorable..
And fluffy~ hehe~
he's so BIG and i was thinking of calling him BIGGIE..lol

Red Shoes

I Love Red..
i got lots stuff with the colour of red..
Coat
Purse
Towel
Blanket
Scarf
Lipgloss
Lipstick
Blusher..All make up things
Hair band
Blouse
Br* & Und***
Bag
Comb
and now adding to it
My new pair of shoes...

2011

Happy New Year..!!!!!

lols.. I haven't got the chance to watch firework during the new year eve. I wish, someone will bring me someday. What a comic-heart-warming-wish is that?
haha~
well.. i have wrote my resolution for this new year and will try my best to accomplish it.
Some of the resolution will remains secret. I feel it's unnecessary to write everything here. first and foremost, I want to produce a super excellent assignment that can impress the marker n thus gain excellent grade for it.
I wanted to erase the word "sound promising" from my life.
Academically, i want to be better students in term of class attendance, assignment, exam N VOLUNTEERING WORK..!!
i should have started to plan my volunteering work this year and at least get the Certificate granted by the Mayor.
Next, I need to start my pilates lesson on my own as soon as possible. I have a bad feeling that my tummy is becoming a bit obvious especially after i eat.
This winter break have given me a long hibernation time which building up fat in my entire body part. i become self concious about my appearance recently.
I don't know if it's sound good or bad. When i feel happy or sad, i tent to eat a lot and sleep.
It can't be help since i don't practice any other exercises.

Personally, i think i don't have to change my attitude. But maybe, some people are not happy with quiet attitude of mine. keeping all in my heart wouldn't help much. So i guess i have to me more expressive about my feeling. and importantly share everything with the person i love so much. I wish he could be there for me whenever i need. You are all i ever need. Give me some strength, some hope, some attention and i feel being loved.
Thank you for everything you have did for me since we met. I'm in love with you so much~
hmmm...
My life was pretty dull back then. Now, i have something to look forward to. My life is changing a little bit more than previous year. I don't give high expectation that my life will suddenly reach the top, but i want to treasure every moment of this life with my love one..
I believe, not knowing the future allow me to give hope on this life.
I FEEL HAPPY... WITH YOUR LOVE...!!
I wish it will last longer, this feeling i feel deep inside my heart..

2010

My year of 2010 was ended with sweet and bitter memories. Lots of things had happen in my life and turned myself to be more mature person. I think every lesson I've learn in life sort of meaningful and unforgettable experiences.
No way i can be so selfish and ignoring how people felt especially whom i love so much. I know what i wanted in this life and hoping one day, i will successfully achieve it. Life isn't a dream, it's a reality. I remembered vividly what i've gone through to achieve this. I felt down for silly things because i think myself couldn't be able to face days alone. But, i forget one things. People who love me always on my side. We're far apart and couldn't share our feeling, sadness, happiness, the joy i gain here, the excitement over something and many more.. Somehow, It gave me a lot of time to think about how to show my gratitude for them.
and to think about my own self. I realize that i should stop comparing my life with other people.
I should feel grateful for what i have. Loving parents and husband-to-be.. I wish for their happiness all the time. It means a lot to me when they smile, laugh and telling me they all fine.
I feel great to end the year 2010. No regrets and always looking forward to facing becoming days when i woke up every morning.
Life is wonderful, full of colours..
After all.. it all depend on me how i fill in the colour into my own life.

Boxing Day sale in Canterbury

I spend only £45 today for 2 pairs of shoes, 2 dress from Topshop, a cardigan from Zara, a blouse and a pair of trousers.
Worth it and i save more than 100 Pound..!

Review from me

Recently, i just watched a video from youtube called "teacher shieda". Most Malaysian probably already knew about the existence of her video, but for those who doesn't know. Lets me tell you know.

This owner of the Youtube is known as Cik Sheida or Teacher Sheida. She works as a English teacher in Malaysia. Her entries on Youtube mainly about her Miming activity of diffrent songs.
N she her ideas were shown in various way. Starting from acting like a guy, and wearing sort of funny costume n then silly make up. lols

I'm writing this entry to give my personal view about her Youtube. I'm not purposely to condemn her action. Rather to voice out my thinking. It's really interesting at first to watch all her videos, but when reading some of the comment on the video. I was quite surprise. I personally think that different people has different ways of expressing themselves. Perhaps, Teacher sheida just do the same as what normal people would do. People always look at others weaknesses and blame to that person for acting silly. But i Think she has her own personal reasons. It's quite harsh to ask her stop dong things she like. Imagine yourself are asked to quit from things you really like from a stranger. We have the right to view her videos, but maybe we have to think twice before posting something offended on her Youtube. After all, she's not the only one who did the song miming.I bet any other people also did or ever try it in thier life. At the very least, anonymous outside there should give her some respect. there's no way to make people respect of yourself if you don't learn to respect other people first.

Secondly, I also think we are not suppose to be extremely judgemental about her. There's no way that she bother about your life. and for me. It would be rude to relate her normal n teacher life. She's a normal human being who has interest in this stuff. Being a teacher doesn't mean she deserve to be critised. She is doing a nobel work in her life. Teaching our children to be well being person. Showing the kids that there's nothing wrong to do what you like as long as it doesn't give bad effect to other people. I feel we should give some tribute to her for encouraging our kids to be themselves. It's just a part of teacher's role to be a good role model to students. And she's doing nothing wrong here. If her song miming activity is opposed by Malaysian Education system, Obviously all her videos would be marked as 'inappropriate'. and maybe she'll be fired straight away by doing this. I do feel that as a teacher we should encourage our students to be brave to express their ideas. In this case, recording a video n post to youtube can be a good example of self learning. Kids are not strictly asked to record merely a miming video. It could be about their experiences during study trip. a video about their family, mommy daddy brothers and sister.. n could be a feedback about what they learn in school. It sounds great, isn't it? The kids not only motivating to independently learning and develop their learning skills especially speaking. But also become more creative and thinking about their own learning. It's important to look at something in a different angle. We should not blame her for what she did.

I got many thing to write here. But i think this would be enough for now. Hopefully, she won't feel offended by those comment n continue her passion. I do respect her not only as a teacher-to-be but importantly as a normal human beings.

Snowing (snow + storming)

Interesting picture..accidentally captured..

hahah.. it was so much fun last 3 weeks, it was snowing heavily and the campus was closed due to the bad weather.
i was suppose to submit assignment on that day, but my lecturer kindly extend due date. hohoho
thanx to bad weather...
My housemate and i end up playing snow outside...

There is a main road at the background. make dunnoe n took picture

There are hundreds of photo.. randomly pick one n post here..
lol..

Early preparation

It's totally not like last year.

Obviously, munchkin is not here for the Christmas, mean no food, no new dress, no Christmas pudding, no Ben&Jerry ice-cream,. and
apparently, no Munchkin..
huk huk huk..
so sad..
but i did buy some ornament, last year 1 i gave to munchkin. I hope he'll remember me during this time..
I miss him so much.. My heart telling me it's ok to spend this Christmas alone.
I keep busy doing something to occupy my free time. It's a month holiday, n i'm not planning to go somewhere.
I just wish to come back n meet my only love one, munchkin.
I went to college n submit my assignment, i feel relief knowing now i can have my own time. without thinking of the task. it's over.
I bought some new ornament, chocolate n few novel.. ornament for Christmas tree munchkin bought last year, Ferrero Rocher to treat my self n novel to read.. I guess my life not perfect here. But, i feel a bit happy knowing munchkin love me.. i feel happy to be with him.
Dear santa, i want to be happily ever after with munchkin n wishing our love will not fade away.
munchkin.. I love you..

early preparation for Christmas.. My little christmas tree in my own room~

Winter story

Once upon a time...
There's a little girl name Shasha.
She loves snow and everything that's white.
I met her just now and she said wanna tell me something. But i don't expect too much from her because i know she's quite childish.

"I have something in my mind' she said.

I tell her to tell me what's on her mind but she cannot tell me now.
Ok then, i replied. I guess it must be something surprise.
Then , she said will tell me only if i could promise her one thing.
Please don't tell my munchkin what i did at the backyard~
could you keep this as a secret?

i simply said YES...!!!

Then she went to the backyard, look around to check whether anyone is around.

OMG...!!!
what the hell is she doing there?
Is this what she mean by a secret?
She's doing IT there without realizing i'm following her..

Actually, She's not doing things-that-you- know-what.
She ask me to help her build snowman..
Its just a misunderstanding..

My snowman called JiggleBELL

Day 1-Snowing

I feel so excited.. It's snowing again here in Canterbury.
I was told that it has been 5 years without snowing in here, until we came last year.
I came here in 2009, and that's the 1st time after 5 years, Canterbury was coverred with snow again.
ANd THIS YEAR too!!
So this the good news for Canterburians.. haha..I love everthing that's white and pure and Icy...
Yep..
Creamy Vanilla Hagen Daz.. Yummy
Comfy Duck Feather
Candy Floss.. Again.. yummy n tasty
Cloud.. when i was in the flight, couldn't sleep watching it.
The time just fly by although its long haul 1.

Day 2- Snowing

Winter finally comes again this December, i am glad it will be White Christmas this year..

I miss my munchkin.
We used to play together at this time.
The white icy landscape remind me of him..
Dear munchkin.. I want you to know my love for sayang as pure as white snow.
Wish to hug you right now~

Hunting for Toman

Location : Pantai Kamloon
Time: morning till afternoon
Target: Toman & siblings.. * ikan bilis
(lols it impossible unless u go fishing at market)
Weapon: golden nugget
Lure: SEDUCTIVE Rapala Shad Rap HT
Attire: Anything * You are not advised to naked unless you wanna make some "overcooked hot-dogs"

Again, munchkin went fishing that day. Actually, yesterday. Went to hunt some aggressive & wild Toman at pantai Kamloon. Isn't toman suppose to live in fresh water? Yes, it is. It just a name of a place which the pond is located. I can say that the day really damn hot from the picture. Just look at munchkin.! Obviously, he's showing that face not because the fish is heavy. Lols
His face so funny..!
Maybe his fat ass already burned by the torrid temperature & couldn't stand it anymore.
or
Maybe he's too excited with his catch..! I guess so..

Wow..! look at me~ I catch a Biggie this time.

Well, i feel happy for him. At least he has got one rather than nothing.
I'm very glad that munchkin only interested in fishing.
Thinking of his passionate hobby and how he's really into it, i decide to put some or maybe more Toman into my dad's pond at our backyard. Since the pond already there but no one wanna make use of t. Although it's not as big as Sg. Lebam
* I wonder why people gave it that name. sounds yukkk!!
hmm back to the pond, But unfortunately i only can do that when returning back to home in 2012. Means still got 1 year plus from now on.. haih~
ya ya ya~ i am tired of counting. Can i just skip for 1 year?
ok~ story end

Today's lesson: New vocabulary
1. Toman (noun): refer to a person
My name is Toman. aka TOM

2. Tomanly (adverb): in a way to show somebody is too proud and arrogant
He's talking tomanly about too many rubbish.

3. Tomaning (verb): to hunt fish
Are you free this weekend? Let's go tomaning.

4. Tomanish (adjective): describing women/man who has many sexual partner
OMFG.! i just figured out that he/she such a tomanish asshole.

Year 2012

I will be going back to Malaysia.

I will finish my studies at Canterbury Christ Church University~

Sadly, i think couldn't have the chance to attend world Olympic games in the UK
Hoping to have a graduation ceremony at Canterbury Cathedral.
Looking forward to traveling with munchkin.
Plan to go to France, Spain, Switzerland, Amsterdam & Germany..
This year before going back to Malaysia
I wish his Mummy & family could come together.
It will be more fun~

Buy gift for each my family members.
and Darling family.
Already gave mummy CK as pressie, how about Beaverbrooks jewelery next?
Also plan to buy wedding-exchanged-gift here.
I got free Samsung digital camera from Etihad, Next time will get the Swarovski jewelery for myself or mom.
heheh.. Feeling happy now..
Good night everyone~

You better learn your lesson

p/s: not suitable for children under aged or student sitting for big Exam

Now i feel satisfied. Someone is realising she is being targeted.
* I guess so
All this while i was talking about u bitch.
Did you realise what are you doing?
So stop messing around with me and my belonging.
Poor slut..
You are lucky enough i haven't decided to go further.
Step back..!!
Don't touch my stuff because i don't n will never ever like you do so.
& mind your own business~
Poor slut~
Don't be so proud with your fucked face.
All i can see just a fucking cheap whore sucking a dick.
Nothing can be your saviour if it accidentally on the youtube *Uppsss
lols
OMFG~
I saw on my phone~

morale of the stories: Don't ever record whenever you do suck your bf dick using yours or maybe someone else hp.

I have enough talking shit now. I just wanna sit back n relax.. watching what happen next..

I love to destroy Bitch & really enjoying it.

Never Enough

Referring to my woofer..
I think i need better than this one.
"currently using Logitech speaker set" *sigh~
Really need something that can blow my room up.!!
I'm not feeling happy~
I need Better LOUDER super great new woofer..!!!