yesterday is history, Today is reality & Tomorrow is Mystery~

hmm... yesterday, i was a naive little girl, know nothing much bout this life.. life is interesting, yet challenging.. i have met diffrent people with diffrent charactristics, lifestyle, attitudes & behaviour... they're all differ to each other, but wht's make them similar is they all have heart and feeling. People hv the right to do what they like and what they don't. N also to like and to admire other people.
I faced a love failure once n i dont want it to happen again. i suffered a lot. Now i realise that m not suppose to hv the relatnship. i wasted my precious time.. i let my self to be fooled,.
haih..~ so saKit hati when i remmber back those mmories..~ whatever it is, yesterday is history~
Today is reality. I hv been so-called a single ldy for quite some times.. hihi~ n M proud of it. I wnt to prove to my self that i can live without Bf, i don't depend on them to be wht i wanted to.
n Tomorrow is mystery.. i didn't say that i wnt to be forever single n available. hOping that one day i'll meet some1 who really appreciate me. smbody who can be there when i need some1 to talk to.. somebdy loves me more than i love him..
i'll be waiting for him..

Tell me why..~

Hmm.. exam juz around the corner..
15 days left for the final exam.. everyone seems stress.. they express it differently.
For it, if i feel stress i will go out somewhre, take a deep breath and death.. hahah.. no lar
i would rather call my homie and talk with them..
but, some people more likely to talk about other people, what else, gossipping la..
haih, seem dat they hv nothing to do except gossip.. i want to make confession dat i'm actlly used to gossipping.. if i think it is neccessarily thing to inform other people or i felt hurt (unsatisfied).
i realise dat what u give, u'll get it back. same goes to me if i talk about other people.
the truth is sometime i do care what people has talked bout my, myself. i often be the victim of gossipping becoz i'm free-hair..
huu~ aiyoohh... they like to judge people from it's appearance..
somebody, tell me why must i am treatened this way?? am i look so jahat juz becoz m free-hair.??
one thing for sure is i do not bother people's life. so why must them bother mine??
haih~
i've grown up, no need someone to tell me to to this, to do that.. if i want to wear a tudung, it's up to me la..
i will, yes, definitely one day i'll wear a tudung.. everyone want to change to be better..
so do i, i will change for the sake of my life.. one day, i'll wearing tudung when i become a teacher at the later stage or when i think it is a must to make a turning point in my life.
p/s: do people always "pandang rendah" to free-hair person like me?

Time Bersuka-suki bersama si ili & Nini~

Today, we'll be going to exhibition centre at mid valley.. yay..!!
finally, i got smthing to do during my w'kend~
hmm.. the Dinosour exhibition will completely be fun for me.. i love dinosour,. hihi~ but the one who do not eat flesh, or simply say herbivor type la~
actually, it is not the exhbtn which make me happy, it is the fact knowing dat i'm going to go out with my beloved friends- ili n nini
btw, one more thing.. i think i usually see one of the dinosour in ili's house..
Yeah, T-Rex... the jelmaan t-rex in human shape..hahah~ juz joke
p/s: t-rex jagn mara na kl terbace this post

Takziah my friend

I receive a phone call recently, telling dat PP's mother passed away this morning..
dear nurhafizah, takziah diucapkan..
PP, i know dat news would definitely devastate ur feelings.. remember, m always here to share your sadness, M here to wipe ur tears.. M here to support you..
i hv the feeling dat i am surely need someone to be with me if i loss my beloved one.. it's juz dat the time has not come yet.. i hope u'll be more stronger to get through this life.
HopE dat ur late mother will rest in peace.. Al-Fatihah

Buah Hatiku~

Hmm normal person often has one special person in their life... but, m not.. not saying dat m abnormal but i hv 2 special person in my life.. they are actly my nephew... hihi~ they're cute but smetime a bit nakal.. ala besela budak2 kan.. Since AKID was born, i feel like he's giving me an inspiration n strength to go through my life.. i love him full of my heart as if m his mother.. tapi mak la juge kan. mak cik..!! n not to be forgotten, his brother, AFIQ.. hmm same name with afiq, my friend both of them are apples of my eyes... sunyi hidup tanpa my babies neh.. n frankly speaking i always get homesick bcoz of them.. mesti nak blik rumah once a month.. Dua2 sangat comel...!! not to be mentioned, haih... terlebih manje.. i still vividly remember last week, when my sister n i went to so-called Metro concert, bwa skali my nephew neh.. but then, haiyoohhh... susahnye nak soh dok diam, run here and there... yg kecik br setahun lebih tu pun same... men langgar je mane2 orng.. hmm.. it's ok la.. nobody nk marah kan kl jd dak kecik.. n yg bestnyer, gadis2 yg die langgar tu bleh plak gave him big hug and kisses.. haih.. dah besar t ader potential nk jd playboy neh.. suke sngt dapt tngk diorng mmbesar.. hish.. xleh cite bnyk2, t rindu susah la~

SHASHA

10 things about me
1. suke makan
2. rendah sangat2.. 143cm & 40 kg
huhu~
3. i know how to write terbalik
4. baju saiz xS
5. slalu panas hati tp xnak luahkan
6. dalam sebulan, mesti ader sekali menangis
7. xder hobby
8. suke simpan stuff yg ader kenangan sejak sekolah>matrik>present
9. perasan remaje, but aclty i'm young adult now- dah 21 tahun lor
10. sangat tegas ngn adik2 pompuanku- ai2 and adik

A single love, MY WORLD

I learn many things in my life,
i learn to appreciate
i learn to hate
i learn to give n take
mostly, i learn to love
hmm...
from a colourless piece of cloth, now i'm mature
n full of experiences
i always need love..
love makes me happy
love makes me smile
love makes me live to the fullest
love makes me breath
love makes me care about other people
love coloured my life

A single rose can be my garden... a single LOVE, my world.

Wish You Happy Birthday~

hihi~
i purposely write this happy birthday wish to ilidina earlier in case there's no Internet connection in my room..
Dear Ilidina bt Mahadi~
ehem2...
ilidina,,,,
"Happy birthday to you..2x...
"Happy birthday to ilidina..
"Happy birthday to you..."
haih...besar dah lliltle girl neh..
wish u gd luck in ur future undertaking~
May Allah bless you..
Gembira2 slalu...
and
Don't ever be afraid to come to me n cry
Don't ever hesitate to look me n the eye
Don't ever be afraid to tell me how you feel
Remember your are my girl ~n~ we gotta keep it real
I love u so much ili~

Don't know Why..

i went out with afiq last night..
we had a gd time together..
went here and there as if nothing to be worried of..
but something came out in my mind, am i do the right thing?
i feel guilty to go out with somebody's bf..
I know the fact that he has gfriendS.. i don't want to flirt with him..
and i think he's too..
haih...
i like him the way he treat me.. so nice and i didn't ask him to treat me dat way since we met before.. however, he keeps giving me love even i didn't ask for...
hahah~
But, friend is still friend no matter what has happened~
well, i should remind him bout dat..
we're friend, juz friend.. nothing more n nothing less..
Dear afiq, i like u.. hahah~ yeah right

Happy Birthday..!!

dear friends,
iF You read this post, u should know that m actly written dis for you~
Happy 2oth birthday to ainur~
you're grown up la babe.. gerek3..!!
hihi~
if i know i'm going to die today n if i have to choose btwn die and 1 minute life..
of course la i choose to live for 1 minute, so that i can tell u how much i appreciate our friendship..
n mostly to wish u happy birthday..~
May Allah bless u.. wish u have a gd health n life throughout the year..
wish u success in ur future undertaking..
hmm.. thousand appologies for any mistakes i had done to u..
Ainur, thnx for being such a gd friend of mine.
ainur, thnx for giving me chance to hv a happy moment with u n other friends
hoping that our friendship will never die!!

A moment to be remembered...

I WON 1ST PLACE FOR CHEERLEADING TEAM..!!

YAY..
HURRRAYYY..!!
Best sngt2 coz menng cheerleading this year..
last year mmg suck cket la..
congr8ltion to all participants, wlaupun kn maki2 ngn ak tp korng dh buktikn yg korng mmg best
n u all can make everybody proud..
eventhough we didn't buy new clothes for cheerleading team, but we manage to win..
budget paling rendah..
thanx a lot to my collleagues- ACAP and FATIN
not to be forgotten, my new so-called sayang- hahah.. izzat..!!
i knew there was misunderstanding, but i hope that evrybody won't keep a score..
for me, i juz take this cheerleading as an entertainment during sport day..
suke2 sudeyh.. this not a competition.. so i hope dat every1 enjoyed the day..
and harap2nye our frindship will grow stronger..

mewakili kwn2 cohort 1,
FYI, during the sport day.. senior kite- abg emmy, mad jek as well as abg rahman.. hihi yela tuh..
telah pun berganding bahu memakihamun junior2 TESL COHORT 2 perempuan yg makin berlemak skrg..!!
buat malu budak course TESL je..
ktorg penah gak jd junior tp xder r nk bsar kepala siot..

Alert..!! Examination juz around the Corner...~

E- extra efforts
E- extra exercises
E-extra revision times
X- X extra sleeping
X- X procrastination
X-X lackadaisical attitude
A- Aim for good result
M- Make everybody proud

GO.. Go>> BLUE HOUSE..!!

>> B for Bravery
>> L for Life
>> U for Unity
>> E for Excellent.. GO...~~ BLUE HOUSE..!!

hihihi~ again this year, i participate with cheer leading team for blue house..
this so-called competition is real challenging to me.
i need to face with different types of people with different type of behavior..
some of them are good, and committed with the team..
while some of them are suck, esp those who are experiencing the cheer leading for the 1st time..
i thought this actvty will be exciting for them, but it seems that some of them don't like it either..
came late to practise is must for them. plus gave tonnes of excuses to escape from coming to the practise session... adeh..
xpaham la..
they're grown up, suppose to understand when i told them simple thing..
i just request them to give full commitment and to appreciate our effort...
after kena maki baru nak sedar..
the real me give them a free lecture coz i couldn't stnd with their attitudes anymore..
bengang sangat..!!!
i don't like to scold them badly, but i have to..
huuhuuu~
hope that they'll understand the purpose i was doing so..
it's for their sake, coz next year they'll have to handle the same thing with their junior..
this is just a early experience for them, so that they'll know what to do next year..

haih...~
it's so tiring to face with these people.. Acap and me nearly give up..
both of us thought we're juz wasting our time doing this useless cheer..
we get nothing for doing this.. we loss most of the precious time for our Exam which just around the corner. WE spend our energy.. even there's extra classes, we didn't attend coz the focus now is for the cheer leading team..!!
there's lot to do with our studies rather than trained them..

haih..
I will not give up and i will try to make everybody proud..!!

CRUSH..

.. it remind me bout the song which is singing by David Archuleta..
hurm... after faced with few times heart broken, i never fail to like smbdy..
huhu~
so stupid, am i?
i like the way he speak to me..
i like him, for he's the real him
i like him for being so nice to me..
even though we 're far apart, i like the way he sms me, feel that we're juz a meter away..
hahah~
fnkly speaking, i like him so much..
hope to c him everyday..
i miss his smile, i miss his laugh..
i miss every words from him, my heart is singing a love song for him..